Just when everything is going well.

Hey, guys i'm back. I'm sorry that this blog update is gonna be me venting my emotions out. i just hope you guys would take a minute or two out to listen to my troubles. It has really been a very rough and bad week for me as i heard many stuffs which i would never want to hear. Most of you might think that "Aiya hear stuffs only, part of life what, get over it." But, no. I really can't get over it. And it's not that i didn't try, i tried. Things still won't work out. I feel that i have calmed down a lot after the incident but i just have to get it off my chest. So here goes nothing. I felt like i made a fool out of myself because for the past one year you guys basically fought and didn't get along because of me and after that realizing that you fancy him. LIKE WTF. Are you fucking kidding? I just want one last month of peace with my closest friends, no drama, no bullshits, just have the moment of our lives. I just can't believe i walked all the way from casurina to Ai Tong primary school for you taking every step thinking that there's still hope. Have you ever thought that put any guy in the clique in my shoes, would they do the same thing? Would they have to patience to go through all this bullshit. Nevermind, take that as i'm too nice. And still, after we "talked" things out you said "I wished he never told you anything. Sometimes i'd rather you not knowing anything." Okay i get where you're coming from but are you planning to hide it from me until one day i find out and i'll feel more shitty? \I mean, is it that hard to be someone special to you for that one night.... and another thing that i've learnt is that, not all the time the ones that deserves it, gets it. Most of the time, the people that doesn't deserve anything, gets everything. You taught me that. You will never know how much it hurts on the inside..... I miss the old you. Where everything and anything i say to you matters.

Moving on in life~

               How it's going guys! I'm back to blogging after a few days of procrastination and laziness. Guess what, it's my last paper tomorrow! And N's are finally over! Okay, questions like "How was your exams? how's the paper?" would start to come in and stuffs. But i mean, what's done it's already done, and as for the remaining time, just let god decide what's the best for me. Anyways, there's a few things i wanna blog about today, haha, like how was my secondary four year, friendships, relationships and stuffs. 

                       So let's start with what's up in 2013, Okay basically there were kindda lesser problems in sec four compared to sec three. Basically, every year has lesser and lesser issues and problems popping up. So, it's kind of a good thing and kind of a bad thing. Good thing is that, lesser issues, lesser friendship bonds broken, lesser people getting hurt and more people enjoy what they do and have the YOLO feel in their graduating year. Haha , Bad thing is, everybody is starting to have to "Fuck it" attitude. Because the main cause of issues are that people CARE for one another. That is why arguements and fights break out. I mean, would you argue with someone you don't care at all? No. Exactly, so lesser and lesser people start to care about each other and the initiative level goes so low that people start to be desperate for attention, people's concern etc.Then that will cause more issues too. So at the end of the day. The conclusion is, to care? or not to care? Well, this has been one of the dilemma i've been stuck in for some time. Haha, i wonder what are your thoughts about this? :) if ya know me or have my number feel free to pop advices for me and stuff(:

               Next are pictures that i wanna share, pictures of myself and my friends that been through with me this year. I won't forget you guys man.
                So.... Ciao for now~ gotta go study for my last paper tomorrow and i'll be back blogging soon enough. Yepp! Enjoy the pictures!

Photo compilation of 'how puberty leaves no one behind' in our clique. Haha, seriously.

That's me and my close friend throughout the four years.
Thanks brandon for everything.

HAHA, "WE" made the icing of the cake for my bro's enlistment.
One of the first few i met in the clique. Winda. :)

Bro's farewell enlistment gathering.
And that's Andrew on the left. A damn nice guy.

A photo with my class bro's hahaha. Finally a time to wear formally.

And this was my initial outfit for that night, but i removed the tie :(

Merry Christmas !

Hey guys ! It's one day after christmas.. Haha yeah i know... i'm late by one day >< anyways how did you guys celebrate christmas eve and christmas ? Haha , i went to my cousin's house on christmas eve for gifts exchange and my grandma's house on christmas for dinner ! hahaha Damn , I think i'm putting on a whole lot of weight after these two days ! Anyways end of year holidays are coming to an end :< But at least i didn't laze around the house for these two months ! To me ,i have gained experience at my part time job and experienced many incidents that made me reflect :/ hahaa.... My holidays was considered the most fun and relaxing one out of all the past fifteen years. Haha ! quite exaggerating eh ! :P Well, i probably felt that way . Okay that's all for now ! :) The christmas pictures are taken by cousins :P not me ! :)

Cousins !

Gifts exchange ! :)

Work @ hotel w Jingxuan & Cheechai :)

How i feel .

Don't you just know how i feel ?
Having to talk secretly .
Having restrictions in what i have to say everyday .
Planning ice skating for the both of us and it suddenly became don't know some other people.
Me having to see the him show off the gifts you gave him in front of me.
Me having to mind whether he lets us talk and whatsoever.
I have no hard feelings for anybody . I wanna just say everything off my chestttttt.... I don't know what to do either . I'm like stuck in the middle. Just waiting for someone to push me away and pulling me back and forth . What am i gonna do when the best part of me was always you and what am i supposed to say when i'm all choked up and you're okay . Oh i'm glad you're okay now . I'm falling to pieces . The last thing i ever wanted was for you to leave me . I swear .

Plans and things start to screw up.

Hey guys ,  been kindda down lately . :/ and i got nobody to talk to . So i just vent everything on the piano... And guess what ? :) I learnt alot of new songs on the piano ! Actually i had alot of plans during the holidays but now i guess everything is so unstable .... Probably just MIA during the holidays and take a break on my own. So that i can let everything down (: Peace out ~

It's been a rough journey.

I wished it didn't change at all.

Hey readers ! It's been sometime since i last blogged :/ How are all of you guys out there doing? :) The exams are drawing closer and closer each day . Which also means the time remaining with my friends and close ones are getting lesser and lesser day by day :/ Hahaha , been trying to study hard now and buck up. Not only to prevent anybody from looking down on me but more on the side where i can make my parents proud :) Well, okay let me update you on the problems i had from the period where i last blogged . The first problem i had was my studies . Recently i had a talk with Jackson and Kuantat and Jack told me that if i wanted to go to sec five i must really start studying now, because he said he's regretting that he didn't start studying earlier . I really hope that Jackson can go up to sec five and make it to poly . :) The next change is the one that would keep on repeating and repeating and repeating all over again.  My friendship problems . Yesterday i had some problems with justine because Zul told justine some stuff about me and realised it was all a misunderstanding. I really wished that all my friends can be truthful to me . Like really . :( Okay i admit i talked behind justine's back . But it wasn't me alone . Me , Wei Hern ,Soorya and Brandon was talking about justine's attitude under the 724 market that  day . Okay this one we all had a talked so nevermind already. Then before that i was on the phone with Soorya . Soorya accused me for telling Zul that Soorya doesn't like justine. And i said i didn't said it that way. But he didn't believe me and even said that it was confirm i said it. He even said that all the problems started all because of me. Why..... I mean like i don't know who's the one causing all these problems but i just wished that the guy can just own up and talk to me because all these sucks . Why don't you stand in my shoes and try going through what i've gone through.

Next thing is that i've got nothing to do with my 'Listening ear' anymore. Anyways , I just wanna say that everything that i've done i had reasons for it. It may not be obvious on the surface because it wasn't meant for you to know. :( So here's a letter for you .

Hey dearest . How are you ? It's been four days since we last had a proper talk to each other . Although it was just a simple four days but i wished you knew that it felt like it was like a long long time ago :'(  Please know that i still care for you alot . If i didn't care about you at all i wouldn't be crying . You were never a burden to me . I don't know what he said . But i really wished now that it didn't happened at all . :( you know  ,  somebody deleted all my pictures that you sent to me . I lost you , but at least i could have a look at your smile whenever i'm upset . And now , there's nothing at all . Damn , wished all these didn't happened at all . All i can say is that. It is moving in the wrong direction.

We are young ~

What an unforgettable night ~ <3 p="p">