How i feel .

Don't you just know how i feel ?
Having to talk secretly .
Having restrictions in what i have to say everyday .
Planning ice skating for the both of us and it suddenly became don't know some other people.
Me having to see the him show off the gifts you gave him in front of me.
Me having to mind whether he lets us talk and whatsoever.
I have no hard feelings for anybody . I wanna just say everything off my chestttttt.... I don't know what to do either . I'm like stuck in the middle. Just waiting for someone to push me away and pulling me back and forth . What am i gonna do when the best part of me was always you and what am i supposed to say when i'm all choked up and you're okay . Oh i'm glad you're okay now . I'm falling to pieces . The last thing i ever wanted was for you to leave me . I swear .