i like you...........and how in the world am i supposed to tell you?

Today my friend asked me if i knew this female friend of mine.....he was like....

friend:"you know her?"

me".........*hesitating on what to write because she's my crush..haiya nevermind just write friends*.............erm....we're just friends......."

And now i feel fucking down.................):

your ways of saying "no,i don't feel the same way for you" is much more painful than you can ever imagine.):

Time, is going by, so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of here with you
Now I'm wondering why I've kept this bottled inside
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
You're never gonna be alone, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands
'Cause forever I believe
That there's nothing I could need but you
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on

We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

Oh, you've gotta live every single day
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away, could be our only one
You know it's only just begun, every single day
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes

Time is going by so much faster than I
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on
If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on
We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day
I'm gonna be there always
I won't be missing a word all day.

FUCKED UP LIFE!

okays,these few days was so fucking fucked up.....first,my phone got confiscated by my fucked up father,second my mother is like pms-ing........maths teacher almost giving up on me&&i have no fucking privacy at home.And now probably home is just a place to sleep.I don't recognise myself at home anymore. why the fuck can't i control my temper? maybe my parents are going overboard.I'm controlling myself not to explode infront of my parents.I scared i'll break my mom's heart. As for my dad,i don't think he regards me and my brother's as his son's although he nags at us all the time.All he did was just using his mouth,he didn't express it through his actions.

Today:
i woke up,sitting on my bed.I checked under my pillow,my 'spare' phone i borrowed from jing xuan was missing.And i realised my dad took my 'spare' phone away when like I WAS SLEEPING :@ FUCK~! WHERE'S MY FUCKING PRIVACY?! so in the morning,i showed 'attitude' to my mom and dad. Actually i had no reason on why to be angry at my mom,i don't even know why i slammed my school bag on the ground in front of my mom.....maybe i was too angry at my father.In the car on the way to school,he scolded me he said "why do you respect your teachers and friends but you don't respect us?! if you want respect,you should give us respect first.And all you do is give us problems,your phone bill too expensive,we need to pay,you never hand in your work or forms,the teacher complain to us,we're responsible,you wake up late for school and get caught by the councillors the 'in-charge' call us,we're responsible again,AND HE CALLED ME STUPID." hey dad,you wanna know why i'm not respecting you? ask yourself,have you ever respected me? my decisions?have you ever considered how fucking bad my situation is? and if you don't want me as a son and think i'm a problematic,abandon me somewhere. make me an orphan.go ahead.i may not be that top grades son you want me to be be,but please don't fucking call me stupid.If i'm stupid,i won't be studying in a proper school.leave me alone and i won't bother you,i will try my best to not let the teacher mention "i will call your parents" beacause i'll tell them "sorry,i don't have parent's.Me and my live by ourselves."

thanks alot.and get this fact :FAML->friends are my life.

what are words~

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

-Chris Medina(:

CHRIS MEDINA~! :D

Before:

After:

HELLOS~!
IT'S BORING SATURDAYS~!):
just browsed through an article in youtube that i thought was an inspirational life changing incident.

Chris auditioned, performing The Script’s “Breakeven,” and he brought along his beloved fiancée, Juliana Ramos, who is confined to a wheelchair following a tragic car accident. Today, Access Hollywood has new details about this emotional story.

Chris, an aspiring singer, said he fell in love with Juliana the first moment he saw her and the two became engaged in the coffee shop she worked in, in 2007.

They had planned to wed two years after getting engaged, but shortly before they could walk down the aisle, Juliana suffered a brain injury in a tragic car accident.

On the exact day they were supposed to get married, Chris shared a song he wrote for his ladylove on Facebook.

“I’m giving all I’ve got to give/To Pull You through/To set you free/More than the vow/‘Through thick and thin’/I’m living it/In your darkest hour, I will be your light,” were some of his heartfelt lyrics.

Although i can't donate any money for juliana's recovery,i still pray for her(: