Thursday, April 7, 2011

FUCKED UP LIFE!

okays,these few days was so fucking fucked up.....first,my phone got confiscated by my fucked up father,second my mother is like pms-ing........maths teacher almost giving up on me&&i have no fucking privacy at home.And now probably home is just a place to sleep.I don't recognise myself at home anymore. why the fuck can't i control my temper? maybe my parents are going overboard.I'm controlling myself not to explode infront of my parents.I scared i'll break my mom's heart. As for my dad,i don't think he regards me and my brother's as his son's although he nags at us all the time.All he did was just using his mouth,he didn't express it through his actions.

Today:
i woke up,sitting on my bed.I checked under my pillow,my 'spare' phone i borrowed from jing xuan was missing.And i realised my dad took my 'spare' phone away when like I WAS SLEEPING :@ FUCK~! WHERE'S MY FUCKING PRIVACY?! so in the morning,i showed 'attitude' to my mom and dad. Actually i had no reason on why to be angry at my mom,i don't even know why i slammed my school bag on the ground in front of my mom.....maybe i was too angry at my father.In the car on the way to school,he scolded me he said "why do you respect your teachers and friends but you don't respect us?! if you want respect,you should give us respect first.And all you do is give us problems,your phone bill too expensive,we need to pay,you never hand in your work or forms,the teacher complain to us,we're responsible,you wake up late for school and get caught by the councillors the 'in-charge' call us,we're responsible again,AND HE CALLED ME STUPID." hey dad,you wanna know why i'm not respecting you? ask yourself,have you ever respected me? my decisions?have you ever considered how fucking bad my situation is? and if you don't want me as a son and think i'm a problematic,abandon me somewhere. make me an orphan.go ahead.i may not be that top grades son you want me to be be,but please don't fucking call me stupid.If i'm stupid,i won't be studying in a proper school.leave me alone and i won't bother you,i will try my best to not let the teacher mention "i will call your parents" beacause i'll tell them "sorry,i don't have parent's.Me and my live by ourselves."

thanks alot.and get this fact :FAML->friends are my life.

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