Another day where i screwed every single thing up.

Sometimes,peacemakers do get involved in problems too you know? I finally get it, lies are still lies. Guhan if you really cannot stop telling lies one fine day everyone will loose it's ability in saving you from the consequences. Why not just say out the fucking truth? Loyalty to you BROTHERS? Ha, i find it very amusing you know. i've never made you realised how many of your bro's have backstabbed you.

So, my wednesday's totally spoiled. My birthday celebrations gone.....i never had a birthday celebration with my friends before Why?!? ): , i have no one to talk to now and i even tried helping others when i myself can't solve mine already. Why Alden? don't do this kind of things your whole life...huh? holding birthday parties for others when nobody gives a fuck about mine. remember every single personality of whom i've met when nobody even tries to understand me. i feel so fucked now. my birthday's gone just because my parents have work. My dad even said it so sacarstically in front of me. Who ever knew that? the docotor said there's no cure for me...who ever knew that? my dad said spending money on me to the doctor is a fucking waste of money..who ever new that? my close friends are starting to distant...who ever knew that? smiling is the basic way to be happy? hahahaha my foot i'm crying.