Merry Christmas !

Hey guys ! It's one day after christmas.. Haha yeah i know... i'm late by one day >< anyways how did you guys celebrate christmas eve and christmas ? Haha , i went to my cousin's house on christmas eve for gifts exchange and my grandma's house on christmas for dinner ! hahaha Damn , I think i'm putting on a whole lot of weight after these two days ! Anyways end of year holidays are coming to an end :< But at least i didn't laze around the house for these two months ! To me ,i have gained experience at my part time job and experienced many incidents that made me reflect :/ hahaa.... My holidays was considered the most fun and relaxing one out of all the past fifteen years. Haha ! quite exaggerating eh ! :P Well, i probably felt that way . Okay that's all for now ! :) The christmas pictures are taken by cousins :P not me ! :)

Cousins !

Gifts exchange ! :)

Work @ hotel w Jingxuan & Cheechai :)

How i feel .

Don't you just know how i feel ?
Having to talk secretly .
Having restrictions in what i have to say everyday .
Planning ice skating for the both of us and it suddenly became don't know some other people.
Me having to see the him show off the gifts you gave him in front of me.
Me having to mind whether he lets us talk and whatsoever.
I have no hard feelings for anybody . I wanna just say everything off my chestttttt.... I don't know what to do either . I'm like stuck in the middle. Just waiting for someone to push me away and pulling me back and forth . What am i gonna do when the best part of me was always you and what am i supposed to say when i'm all choked up and you're okay . Oh i'm glad you're okay now . I'm falling to pieces . The last thing i ever wanted was for you to leave me . I swear .

Plans and things start to screw up.

Hey guys ,  been kindda down lately . :/ and i got nobody to talk to . So i just vent everything on the piano... And guess what ? :) I learnt alot of new songs on the piano ! Actually i had alot of plans during the holidays but now i guess everything is so unstable .... Probably just MIA during the holidays and take a break on my own. So that i can let everything down (: Peace out ~

It's been a rough journey.

I wished it didn't change at all.

Hey readers ! It's been sometime since i last blogged :/ How are all of you guys out there doing? :) The exams are drawing closer and closer each day . Which also means the time remaining with my friends and close ones are getting lesser and lesser day by day :/ Hahaha , been trying to study hard now and buck up. Not only to prevent anybody from looking down on me but more on the side where i can make my parents proud :) Well, okay let me update you on the problems i had from the period where i last blogged . The first problem i had was my studies . Recently i had a talk with Jackson and Kuantat and Jack told me that if i wanted to go to sec five i must really start studying now, because he said he's regretting that he didn't start studying earlier . I really hope that Jackson can go up to sec five and make it to poly . :) The next change is the one that would keep on repeating and repeating and repeating all over again.  My friendship problems . Yesterday i had some problems with justine because Zul told justine some stuff about me and realised it was all a misunderstanding. I really wished that all my friends can be truthful to me . Like really . :( Okay i admit i talked behind justine's back . But it wasn't me alone . Me , Wei Hern ,Soorya and Brandon was talking about justine's attitude under the 724 market that  day . Okay this one we all had a talked so nevermind already. Then before that i was on the phone with Soorya . Soorya accused me for telling Zul that Soorya doesn't like justine. And i said i didn't said it that way. But he didn't believe me and even said that it was confirm i said it. He even said that all the problems started all because of me. Why..... I mean like i don't know who's the one causing all these problems but i just wished that the guy can just own up and talk to me because all these sucks . Why don't you stand in my shoes and try going through what i've gone through.

Next thing is that i've got nothing to do with my 'Listening ear' anymore. Anyways , I just wanna say that everything that i've done i had reasons for it. It may not be obvious on the surface because it wasn't meant for you to know. :( So here's a letter for you .

Hey dearest . How are you ? It's been four days since we last had a proper talk to each other . Although it was just a simple four days but i wished you knew that it felt like it was like a long long time ago :'(  Please know that i still care for you alot . If i didn't care about you at all i wouldn't be crying . You were never a burden to me . I don't know what he said . But i really wished now that it didn't happened at all . :( you know  ,  somebody deleted all my pictures that you sent to me . I lost you , but at least i could have a look at your smile whenever i'm upset . And now , there's nothing at all . Damn , wished all these didn't happened at all . All i can say is that. It is moving in the wrong direction.

We are young ~

What an unforgettable night ~ <3 p="p">

Holidays are ending !

My face -------> *(^_^)* 

Sup world ! Wow , it's been about two weeks i guess ? since i last blogged :/ lappy is still down .... Now the only time i can blog is limited to once a week , so i'll just cramp all the updates for the whole week to till Sunday (: Hahaha , the everytime i never blog many things would start changing and me myself would have realised many things. Situations and problems around me became much clearer and easier to solve , but i guess , for most of the teenagers the common solution to every situation or problem is to "Avoid" it . Agree ? Haha that's what i think :P We might be able to think about a million of solutions but it always comes back down to the same thing which is just not bothering about anything . :X LOL! haha , why am i even talking about these matters .... bleh :X anyways update update ! (: Holidays are passing by like the speed of light ! :/ can you believe it ? it's actually one months of holidays but it only feels like one week or two :/ damm it i don't wanna go back to school ): Yeah and Isyra's birthday ! wow .....at first it was like super pressurising , Quarreled with my bros :/ But overall it was okay (:Hahaha! Anyways ! last week of holidays ! I'm just gonna spend it wisely and mean time pack up my holiday mood and get ready for school (:

In Love ♥

Okay Hi Readerrrsssss ! HEEE HEEE HEEE HEEE HEEE ! love is in the air people <3
Okay guys ! How's your sunday peeps ? :/ It's been the second day already ^_^ I'm really glad she gave me a chance (: I promise i'll cherish this chance <3 But the sad part is that we haven't meet up yet :/ dayummmm , anyways you know how much your sourie is missing you right ? :) Hahahahahaha jelly fish :P You're mine now (:
Okay okay stop stop my whole mind is filled with her already :P Okay monday is like OBS already ! Have fun for people like Lina , Karin , Cameron and Jing Xuan ! (: Damnnn got nothing to blog on a sunday afternoon :/ Anyways i'm really hoping we can meet up soon (': i need you :P

WHAT A WEEK ^_^

OMG. I'm actually feeling very happy now !! (^_^) I'm almost there already ! Please Please let this time be a miracle !!! c:
Okay UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE !!
The past few days i had my COMBINED UG CAMP. It was very very very very fun and tiring at the same time ! ^^ Especially for the camp planning group ! okay okay picture time :P

(~_~)

Sup World ! It's Saturday ! (: It's like the third day i'm down with fever and the seventh day without my Samsung phone :/ My head is like stinging pain :< Panadol doesn't work at all ..... Damn my life is in a messed at the point where i should be enjoying it the most .things change...what can i do?..got nothing really to say now... peace out :)

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE .

Wow, Hi readers :) Hello my blog fan (': you know who you are right ?(': Dayummm can't believe i'm tearing while i update my blog... I SHOULD BE HAPPY THAT I CAN UPDATE MY BLOG RIGHT? (:  I guess i just miss the things that were used to be back then .. :/  Okay, my laptop's spoilt , and yesterday , my phone was craving for a dive in the pool , yeahh so it fell to the bottom of the pool and died on me. Gosh , i feel so lonely right now without my whatsapp , my music , texting , viber-ing all gone :/ But not for long i hope c:
                                                                   MENTIONING TIME ! ^^

Okay there's two people that mean so much to me right now and it's mentioning time (:
 The first one is My Number One blog fan (: Gosh , okay . You know it . Most of my connections are like cut off with you already :/ Damn i feel so weird. HAHAHAH, You said you felt weird too. Hope you saw my super long message i sent this morning at like what...6am ? >< ahahahhaha. I really hope my phone is fixed fast !  :D Mean time you got to take care of yourself okayy :/ I won't be there to give you wake up calls.. :/ And text you all the best before your exams ....  and text you whatchu doing after school .. :/ #FML Just know that i miss you and yes just that (: thanks for the picture ! Once again i breach your copyrights :P i promise it's the last time(:

Okay next is syg (: Yeah , syg . It's been a whole lot of things happening to us these few weeks. I just want to let you know that all the decisions is up to you now ! i love you lots c:

Okay got to go now ! all the best people ! Take care ^^

Dayummm ! It's Sunday D:

Wak Da Fok ?! It's Sunday D: Which also means there's school tomorrow :/ Haishhh , dayummm  Mid year exams starts on Tuesday. #Stress Ohyeah ! Today's Mother's day ! c: Wishing all mom's in the big big world HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY ^^

Okay i shall update myself now, Urm i guess my "raging hormones" are much more calmed down now (: I don't really think too much now cause of the exams . I can't let anything distract me now :D Anyways a few days back me and Rachel talked (: wow.... it's been such a long time since we last had a chat i guess ~ It seemed like she changed at the start of the conversation but after a while she's still the Rachel i knew . WE didn't change :) The ENVIRONMENT changed ^^ Yeahhh , okay sometimes i will still have the feeling of going back to last year , i mean , who doesn't ? :/ Emotionless people i guess :P Anyways i think i've grown up so much compared to sec one and sec two , the way i type , the way i act . Totally different now (: So here's a soloution to everyone from a very special friend i've got :)                                                                                                                                                         

Imma Asshole ~

 Okay i know you're reading this , YUP I NOW RIGHT.
 Yeah, Probably your close friends will start to hate me now or maybe you too will !.... I know that although this will affect you now , i don't know how deep cause you usually don't tell me how you feel about me and i don't dare to ask cause i'm afraid it'll disappoint me but it won't last for long (: Because i know that i won't affect you much.. and yeah you'll need a break before mid year starts (: I know i let my emotions took over me ~ and i wasn't raising my voice cuz of you but cause of myself , i hate myself for always screwing up the bestest friends i always have like naziha and all for NO FREAKING REASON. Anyways , Just two words . I'm Sorry. Shouldn't have let everything out .... Screw me please ? Not that "screw" But literally screw me please ^^ Haishh gonna go play ball NOW. ARGHHH ALL OUT.

Public Holiday ~

 This was supposed to be posted yesterday...

Okay , Honestly speaking today was a fun day i had , hahaha , It's like the first time i got so close to her (: Tau pok justine and tell him "I love you so much ^^ " Hahahaha . Before i knew it , At 5:40 pm,  things was starting to hurt me . I don't want to talk about it anymore.... It's safe to say that i'm ready .... to get over it !!!!! (: #LIKKABOSS. Don't cry Alden don't cry ~ nobody's gonna shed a tear for you.  SO CHIN UP :D AND LET THE WORLD KNOW HOW STRONG YOU ARE ! School mode on ! ^^ Emotions : OFF OFF OFF ^^
OHYEAH AND I BEAT RALPH IN BASKETBALL LIKE FINALLY 7:6 WOOHOOOO Okay at least that match cheered me up abit ! :P
#Peaceout ~

Nightmare ! ))':

I guess if i woke her up now she'll be like that :P

Screwww it's like early in the morning and i had an night mare -.-and the last person i talked on the phone with before i got abducted in my dream was Ms Lu ): Then i woke up , feeling so horrified that i almost cried LOL i wanted to call pandaaa but guess she's till asleep )))))):

BUT still (: I cannot be selfish! c: Let her have her panda sleep ~                                                                                            

Things shouldn't be like this ! :D

Everything will be alright when you believe c:

Whaaaaa , whyyyyyy ? Things shouldn't be like this ! c: Just wanna say that i'm not siding anyone and i want things between you guys to go back to normal ! :D Okay , Letter writing time again ! c:
                                              
Dear Panda ! I know you're sleeping like one now ! :P So i decided to write out this thingy ! I think last night was the first time i heard you cry:/ i know it's not the first time already okay ! ): Whaa *heart pain* >< Then i hear you say "I'm fine!" While you're crying, you this silly panda!*heart more pain* Just want to let you know that it's all just a misunderstanding and a whole lot of miscommunication ! So , don't worry cause i'm sure everything will turn out fine by next week i promise (': and mean time don't let your mind think about too much sad stuff ! (: At least you're not alone now okay ? (: and MYE it's like next week so you got to be strong!!! :D ENDURE LIKKA BOSS. Okay it doesn't even make sense :/ Hope after you see this you'll feel betta ! :)                                                                                                                                                                          

Screw.

Hey bloggers, things haven't been any better although it seems like everythings fine. Yeah , what Justine said was right. She's not mine. I don't have the right to control what she does. Yeahhh, so i came to a conclusion where i'm finally letting things down off my chest, off my shoulder. Hehe , True enough i'm just your friend.....

:/

Damn ,  other than this . Sankari told me something really harsh today when she saw my display picture on my phone.  She was like "What the hell ? Why can't you accept the fact that Mengting doesn't likes you ?!-.-" I know, i get it. I've heard that many times from you. Can you define what's the meaning of putting you and someone on a display picture? No. So i just wish you could hear how i feel first. Yeah screw, today is like totally...... :/ Nobody know's what's going on.......... How ....... How.....

Crappy day :/

Damn ~ :/

Hey guys , Kindda feelin down now...i don't know who to talk to so i shall just pour it all out here.. (: Here goes.
Okay, I admit, today was really crappy. Wasn't great as i expected. Haha i wish i had more time today after school, but on  the other hand....it was correct for me to leave too... Sucks to see her cry...i want to tell her soooo sooo much ): Okay it's really getting more and more emo. She laid on my shoulder today,it's like the first time ever since we became awkward and it totally crushed us everyday . Since when things started getting so serious ? :o I have no idea too. But i what i can conclude is that she has nothing to do with it and all these things happened from the start is all because of my overthinking..Yes i know. BUT I CAN'T FEEL THIS WAY!! CAUSE IF I FEEL THIS WAY, IT'LL AFFECT HER TOO. SOOOO,i should just shhhhhhhh..... ~  (: S-M-I-L-E and Tomorrow will be a better day   !!!!!          

Ohyeah ~ Forgot to ,mention...i've been skipping my pills for the third month already :O anyways went for the appointment today and the doctor said she wants to admit me into the hospital...HAHAHAHAH NEVERMIND ! I WON'T STAY THERE !
                                                                      Okay that's all BYE ! :)))))

What a day ~

Hello my blogger friends ! (: Wow , had a long day today c: FREAKING WATCHED AVENGERS IN THE MORNING AT 10:30PMwith Cameron,Honghwee Zhenxuan and Zul. The movie was kindda funny,exciting cool and a mixture of alot of other stuffs ~ and it was like totally worth it!  HIGHLY RECCOMENDED MOVIE :

Then after the movie Honghwee left first cause he needed to go and have a haircut. Then somehow, which i don't know how , Cameron's mom found out he went to catch a movie. Then he sought of got scolded by his mom >< Ohyeah did i mention ? He met Roslind today and his face was so shy. XD So, after that, Cameron left (: Then me Zhenxuan and Zul waited for Naziha to come but my dad called and i had to go home first :/ So, after i reached home for awhile , Zul and Naziha  rang my door bell and i was like naked HAHA >< then i dressed up and i couldn't find my key and it took me like five minutes and then Zul realised the door wasn't locked (~_~)
Then we went downstairs to study , things between me and Naz have becomed more and more awkward each day. Even Zhen xuan realised that. :'/ After a while Isrya and Sankari came over to study too. (Haishhh, i don't know what's wrong with me but seeing both of them like so together makes me feel as though i'm nothing.)
Then sankari and Isrya left , hahaha it started raining after a while and so we shifted to the function room together with ZhiWei <: Haha they all made friends :)
(Hahahaha, maybe recently you and him got so close together i feel as though i don't really exist anymore. Anyways it's all my over thinking again i guees)': )
Then at 7:15 she started asking me whether i'm fine and i was like "Hahaha! Yeah ! i'm fine ! (((: Almost cried but i controlled  it... :/
And at 7:20 they left , I wanted to send them off but if i were to really send them of i would tear in front of them which i don't want to . So i said "hahaha, you send her home alright c: I'll stay with ZhiWei " As they were walking down i started tearing ......then Zhi Wei realised i was crying so he hugged me....damn i feel so....speechles....
(It's like although i don't have any other feelings for her but i think that she has became so important to me i'm starting to feel neglected...how... :'/ i shouldn't be feeling this way......
It's 9:00pm now..i should end it here already.... bye guys...

HOT HOT SUNDAY :/

HELLO READERS! It's so hot ): Aynways ,Had your tea break yet ? :) I had Macdonalds for lunch i feel so full now (>_<)  I STILL ORDERED HOT FUDGE SUNDAE HAHAH BE JEALOUS ! C:

Okay it's such a unproductive Sunday today :/ I spent last night talking to lina on the phone untill 3:07 am and i probably slept around 3:30 :\ Well, i woke up at 12 pm this morning i mean AFTERNOON>< and the first thing i saw was Mengting's text .  HAHAHAH Guess what , she called me a pig again! (>_<) She loved to sleep in the past like ALOT ALOT ALOT. Likka PANDA :p

I think this is how she looks like when she sleeps :P 

    Anyways i thought of bloggging cause there's another person in my life which i haven't mention ! :) Yes is Ms Lu the Panda ! LU MENGTING c: Although we never talk a lot in school we are like on the phone almost everyday haha! Okay here goes nothing.
 Dear Mengting ! Thank you for entering my life on the 13th year :P Honestly i never regretted meeting you <: Although you claim that you yourself always make nonsense , but i think that these nonsense really makes me smile and laughs sometimes(: I just want to tell you that you are great the way you are right now! Don't think too much ! :D

TEEHEE(:

Time flies ~

Hey readers ! :) It's been a long time since i blogged . Cause the everytime i said i wanna blog, i would be doing something else (~_~)

Time flies :/ It's the fourth month reaching the fifth month in two days that i'm in 3A3 :) Things have changed alot for me and at the same time , i've learnt and been through many things that i never ever expected to go through. Okay so here's what i wanna say.

Now i'm not really in the clique that i used to be with everyday anymore. To be honest i kind of missed hearing their laughter and seeing their smiles.Hah ,guess things have really changed. No one to blame and no one to be named. Well, at least we all are still friends c: 

Next thing is that i wanna thank my all time bro Mr New Zhen Xuan AKA ChickenRice hahahaha! Thanks for being there with me like every single time ! Regardles whether i'm bored , i'm sad , i'm angry even when i cried. You're the best c:

Okay the next person is Nurul Naziha Binte Zainal AKA Pwincess ~ :) Thank you for wiping my tears that night :') You're a really sweet girl and i just wanna say that you are not only worth fighting for but anything that will prevent those tears from your eyes to flow down . :) You are the one that really taught me how to be strong and independent. I hope you will be really be happy with Zul and never look back because for the last two months i tried alot for you and Zul :). Although i feel left out sometimes because three isn't a nice number. But don't worry , i'll get used to it c: Thanks for entering my life :) I love you <3

Next up ! Ashley Elizabeth Maran ~ AKA Mind-Fuck Specialist :P How are you Ashley ? I wish you could see this but i kindda really miss the 'us' last time haha, Carefree ~ So slack ~ No troubles ~ Anyways Thank you for hearing out my problems when i'm troubled.Take Care Ashley c:

Next is Zullhazman Bin Zaini , You Zul ! Better cherish Naz alright. :) And thanks accompanying me when i really really really down and sensing that something's wrong whenever i keep quiet. All the best with you and Naz. Don't break her heart alright because chances like these only comes once in a million :)



YUP, So i guess this is all ~ OH WAIT, THERE'S STILL SOMETHING I WANNA SHARE .HAHAHA MATHS CLASS INCLUDES NYAN CAT.

OKAY, Bye readers ! It's 5:28 pm now and i gotta go ! :) Will blog again soon ! :)