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Sup World ! It's Saturday ! (: It's like the third day i'm down with fever and the seventh day without my Samsung phone :/ My head is like stinging pain :< Panadol doesn't work at all ..... Damn my life is in a messed at the point where i should be enjoying it the most .things change...what can i do?..got nothing really to say now... peace out :)

UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE .

Wow, Hi readers :) Hello my blog fan (': you know who you are right ?(': Dayummm can't believe i'm tearing while i update my blog... I SHOULD BE HAPPY THAT I CAN UPDATE MY BLOG RIGHT? (:  I guess i just miss the things that were used to be back then .. :/  Okay, my laptop's spoilt , and yesterday , my phone was craving for a dive in the pool , yeahh so it fell to the bottom of the pool and died on me. Gosh , i feel so lonely right now without my whatsapp , my music , texting , viber-ing all gone :/ But not for long i hope c:
                                                                   MENTIONING TIME ! ^^

Okay there's two people that mean so much to me right now and it's mentioning time (:
 The first one is My Number One blog fan (: Gosh , okay . You know it . Most of my connections are like cut off with you already :/ Damn i feel so weird. HAHAHAH, You said you felt weird too. Hope you saw my super long message i sent this morning at like what...6am ? >< ahahahhaha. I really hope my phone is fixed fast !  :D Mean time you got to take care of yourself okayy :/ I won't be there to give you wake up calls.. :/ And text you all the best before your exams ....  and text you whatchu doing after school .. :/ #FML Just know that i miss you and yes just that (: thanks for the picture ! Once again i breach your copyrights :P i promise it's the last time(:

Okay next is syg (: Yeah , syg . It's been a whole lot of things happening to us these few weeks. I just want to let you know that all the decisions is up to you now ! i love you lots c:

Okay got to go now ! all the best people ! Take care ^^

Dayummm ! It's Sunday D:

Wak Da Fok ?! It's Sunday D: Which also means there's school tomorrow :/ Haishhh , dayummm  Mid year exams starts on Tuesday. #Stress Ohyeah ! Today's Mother's day ! c: Wishing all mom's in the big big world HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY ^^

Okay i shall update myself now, Urm i guess my "raging hormones" are much more calmed down now (: I don't really think too much now cause of the exams . I can't let anything distract me now :D Anyways a few days back me and Rachel talked (: wow.... it's been such a long time since we last had a chat i guess ~ It seemed like she changed at the start of the conversation but after a while she's still the Rachel i knew . WE didn't change :) The ENVIRONMENT changed ^^ Yeahhh , okay sometimes i will still have the feeling of going back to last year , i mean , who doesn't ? :/ Emotionless people i guess :P Anyways i think i've grown up so much compared to sec one and sec two , the way i type , the way i act . Totally different now (: So here's a soloution to everyone from a very special friend i've got :)                                                                                                                                                         

Imma Asshole ~

 Okay i know you're reading this , YUP I NOW RIGHT.
 Yeah, Probably your close friends will start to hate me now or maybe you too will !.... I know that although this will affect you now , i don't know how deep cause you usually don't tell me how you feel about me and i don't dare to ask cause i'm afraid it'll disappoint me but it won't last for long (: Because i know that i won't affect you much.. and yeah you'll need a break before mid year starts (: I know i let my emotions took over me ~ and i wasn't raising my voice cuz of you but cause of myself , i hate myself for always screwing up the bestest friends i always have like naziha and all for NO FREAKING REASON. Anyways , Just two words . I'm Sorry. Shouldn't have let everything out .... Screw me please ? Not that "screw" But literally screw me please ^^ Haishh gonna go play ball NOW. ARGHHH ALL OUT.

Public Holiday ~

 This was supposed to be posted yesterday...

Okay , Honestly speaking today was a fun day i had , hahaha , It's like the first time i got so close to her (: Tau pok justine and tell him "I love you so much ^^ " Hahahaha . Before i knew it , At 5:40 pm,  things was starting to hurt me . I don't want to talk about it anymore.... It's safe to say that i'm ready .... to get over it !!!!! (: #LIKKABOSS. Don't cry Alden don't cry ~ nobody's gonna shed a tear for you.  SO CHIN UP :D AND LET THE WORLD KNOW HOW STRONG YOU ARE ! School mode on ! ^^ Emotions : OFF OFF OFF ^^
OHYEAH AND I BEAT RALPH IN BASKETBALL LIKE FINALLY 7:6 WOOHOOOO Okay at least that match cheered me up abit ! :P
#Peaceout ~

Nightmare ! ))':

I guess if i woke her up now she'll be like that :P

Screwww it's like early in the morning and i had an night mare -.-and the last person i talked on the phone with before i got abducted in my dream was Ms Lu ): Then i woke up , feeling so horrified that i almost cried LOL i wanted to call pandaaa but guess she's till asleep )))))):

BUT still (: I cannot be selfish! c: Let her have her panda sleep ~                                                                                            

Things shouldn't be like this ! :D

Everything will be alright when you believe c:

Whaaaaa , whyyyyyy ? Things shouldn't be like this ! c: Just wanna say that i'm not siding anyone and i want things between you guys to go back to normal ! :D Okay , Letter writing time again ! c:
                                              
Dear Panda ! I know you're sleeping like one now ! :P So i decided to write out this thingy ! I think last night was the first time i heard you cry:/ i know it's not the first time already okay ! ): Whaa *heart pain* >< Then i hear you say "I'm fine!" While you're crying, you this silly panda!*heart more pain* Just want to let you know that it's all just a misunderstanding and a whole lot of miscommunication ! So , don't worry cause i'm sure everything will turn out fine by next week i promise (': and mean time don't let your mind think about too much sad stuff ! (: At least you're not alone now okay ? (: and MYE it's like next week so you got to be strong!!! :D ENDURE LIKKA BOSS. Okay it doesn't even make sense :/ Hope after you see this you'll feel betta ! :)                                                                                                                                                                          

Screw.

Hey bloggers, things haven't been any better although it seems like everythings fine. Yeah , what Justine said was right. She's not mine. I don't have the right to control what she does. Yeahhh, so i came to a conclusion where i'm finally letting things down off my chest, off my shoulder. Hehe , True enough i'm just your friend.....

:/

Damn ,  other than this . Sankari told me something really harsh today when she saw my display picture on my phone.  She was like "What the hell ? Why can't you accept the fact that Mengting doesn't likes you ?!-.-" I know, i get it. I've heard that many times from you. Can you define what's the meaning of putting you and someone on a display picture? No. So i just wish you could hear how i feel first. Yeah screw, today is like totally...... :/ Nobody know's what's going on.......... How ....... How.....

Crappy day :/

Damn ~ :/

Hey guys , Kindda feelin down now...i don't know who to talk to so i shall just pour it all out here.. (: Here goes.
Okay, I admit, today was really crappy. Wasn't great as i expected. Haha i wish i had more time today after school, but on  the other hand....it was correct for me to leave too... Sucks to see her cry...i want to tell her soooo sooo much ): Okay it's really getting more and more emo. She laid on my shoulder today,it's like the first time ever since we became awkward and it totally crushed us everyday . Since when things started getting so serious ? :o I have no idea too. But i what i can conclude is that she has nothing to do with it and all these things happened from the start is all because of my overthinking..Yes i know. BUT I CAN'T FEEL THIS WAY!! CAUSE IF I FEEL THIS WAY, IT'LL AFFECT HER TOO. SOOOO,i should just shhhhhhhh..... ~  (: S-M-I-L-E and Tomorrow will be a better day   !!!!!          

Ohyeah ~ Forgot to ,mention...i've been skipping my pills for the third month already :O anyways went for the appointment today and the doctor said she wants to admit me into the hospital...HAHAHAHAH NEVERMIND ! I WON'T STAY THERE !
                                                                      Okay that's all BYE ! :)))))

What a day ~

Hello my blogger friends ! (: Wow , had a long day today c: FREAKING WATCHED AVENGERS IN THE MORNING AT 10:30PMwith Cameron,Honghwee Zhenxuan and Zul. The movie was kindda funny,exciting cool and a mixture of alot of other stuffs ~ and it was like totally worth it!  HIGHLY RECCOMENDED MOVIE :

Then after the movie Honghwee left first cause he needed to go and have a haircut. Then somehow, which i don't know how , Cameron's mom found out he went to catch a movie. Then he sought of got scolded by his mom >< Ohyeah did i mention ? He met Roslind today and his face was so shy. XD So, after that, Cameron left (: Then me Zhenxuan and Zul waited for Naziha to come but my dad called and i had to go home first :/ So, after i reached home for awhile , Zul and Naziha  rang my door bell and i was like naked HAHA >< then i dressed up and i couldn't find my key and it took me like five minutes and then Zul realised the door wasn't locked (~_~)
Then we went downstairs to study , things between me and Naz have becomed more and more awkward each day. Even Zhen xuan realised that. :'/ After a while Isrya and Sankari came over to study too. (Haishhh, i don't know what's wrong with me but seeing both of them like so together makes me feel as though i'm nothing.)
Then sankari and Isrya left , hahaha it started raining after a while and so we shifted to the function room together with ZhiWei <: Haha they all made friends :)
(Hahahaha, maybe recently you and him got so close together i feel as though i don't really exist anymore. Anyways it's all my over thinking again i guees)': )
Then at 7:15 she started asking me whether i'm fine and i was like "Hahaha! Yeah ! i'm fine ! (((: Almost cried but i controlled  it... :/
And at 7:20 they left , I wanted to send them off but if i were to really send them of i would tear in front of them which i don't want to . So i said "hahaha, you send her home alright c: I'll stay with ZhiWei " As they were walking down i started tearing ......then Zhi Wei realised i was crying so he hugged me....damn i feel so....speechles....
(It's like although i don't have any other feelings for her but i think that she has became so important to me i'm starting to feel neglected...how... :'/ i shouldn't be feeling this way......
It's 9:00pm now..i should end it here already.... bye guys...