myself~

ohmygosh.......now i don't even understand myself already starting to get jealous for no reason):
its weird to say the truth..............but i wanna say the truth..............ai~yo~yo! i got nothing to say already..... :/


I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

realising reality

i just browsed through the past in facebook and my blog.

seems like everything changed.............people starting to be very socialised,meeting more random friends,making new 'brothers'&&'sisters',events going on,new relationship here and there,breaking ups here and there.

but there's just one thing i realised.

no one accepted me.

people take me for granted.

chating with me just because they're bored.

no girls ever liked me.

putting in so much effort to make the people around me feel a sense of belong.

they just can't feel it.

FML~

OMG!

OMG!

it's saturday already and i haven't even log in my holiday task ._. how to finish?!?!?!
fasterfaster rewind back to monday!!! :D

FML~ BYEEE~WEEEEEEEEE~

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying Cause that's what I said I would do from the start

LALALALALALALALA~
OUTING YESTERDAY WAS FUNN~ BUT TOO BAD I NEED TO GO HOME EARLY :/
ANDAND I ATE ALOTALOT OF VINEGAR TOO :/

CURRENTLY AT HOME NOTHING TO DO :/ SIANN!!
K BYE :P



Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

Making every kind of silence, it takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I know that I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
[- From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/h/hedley-lyrics/perfect-lyrics.html -]
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

When you're caught in a lie and you've got nothing to hide
When you've got nowhere to run and you've got nothing inside
It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my, just myself
Just myself, myself, just myself

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying

my holiday plans totally FAILED :/

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

THINGS ARE NOT GOING WELL :/
BUT WHAT CAN I DO? :P

Holiday plans might be cancelled :/ hbl works not touched yet :/ piano homework not done yet :/ thinking of her :/ blahblahblah :X

i just realised that no matter what i think of always linked to 'her' wan luh...so wierd..O_O i went into facebook staring at the screen for hours....then suddenly she online :D the feeling so shiok sia :P
and when i saw her silly face in my mind i smile in the air like some mad duck :P my mom caught me once then she say i siao >.< LOLOLOLOL funny siaa^^ everytime ask her go out,then go out that time like so siansian :/ miss her bright smiles(: she say some phrases so funny wan lorh!! but i can't leak it out :P

i scaredd she might be thinking about someone else ~_~

got to go! byee unknown people! :D

ALDENEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

my honest thoughts~

I GUESS NOBODY READS THIS BLOG.
so i'm just gonna write down my truthful thoughts(:

Okay woke up this morning because my brother woke me up O_O then i thought i was late for my piano lesson. ><> 16 MISSED CALLS FROM MY PARENTS :O then untill now still kenna scoldings by them for waking up so late :/ haixx today got no planss siaa :/ somebody entertain me :p

kk i guess that's all byeee~~~
weeeeeee~~

CAMP

CAMP WAS not that awesome >.<
but there's a few things i want to tell my friends who attended the NPCC camp.
1)Sorry for making you guys did push up on the ground when it's my fault.(i cried after that because i felt very guilty)
2)i want to say thanks for going through all those shitty problems with me and make me realised that i can't live without you guys(: