Hey, guys i'm back. I'm sorry that this blog update is gonna be me venting my emotions out. i just hope you guys would take a minute or two out to listen to my troubles. It has really been a very rough and bad week for me as i heard many stuffs which i would never want to hear. Most of you might think that "Aiya hear stuffs only, part of life what, get over it." But, no. I really can't get over it. And it's not that i didn't try, i tried. Things still won't work out. I feel that i have calmed down a lot after the incident but i just have to get it off my chest. So here goes nothing. I felt like i made a fool out of myself because for the past one year you guys basically fought and didn't get along because of me and after that realizing that you fancy him. LIKE WTF. Are you fucking kidding? I just want one last month of peace with my closest friends, no drama, no bullshits, just have the moment of our lives. I just can't believe i walked all the way from casurina to Ai Tong primary school for you taking every step thinking that there's still hope. Have you ever thought that put any guy in the clique in my shoes, would they do the same thing? Would they have to patience to go through all this bullshit. Nevermind, take that as i'm too nice. And still, after we "talked" things out you said "I wished he never told you anything. Sometimes i'd rather you not knowing anything." Okay i get where you're coming from but are you planning to hide it from me until one day i find out and i'll feel more shitty? \I mean, is it that hard to be someone special to you for that one night.... and another thing that i've learnt is that, not all the time the ones that deserves it, gets it. Most of the time, the people that doesn't deserve anything, gets everything. You taught me that. You will never know how much it hurts on the inside..... I miss the old you. Where everything and anything i say to you matters.
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